tanoshikunai des,

this is no fun,

why la you have to go to australia D. for a week pulak tu. now i have no one to text. and speak japanese to. and ckp benda2 bengong yg totemo shy. cpat laa blk.

but on the brightside,
due to my excessive boredom. i managed to finish about a quarter or so of my shukudai. still a lot to be done. gambate.

oh, and i managed to catch up on my sleeping hours. sleep is good. and will forever be good.

tatau pe i merepek. im just bored. entertain me.

cave,

doubts, hmm.

i guess you're right.

oh well, wth. as long as im not the one hiding away in a cave somewhere.

saya sungguh tak suka awak.

nani nani deska,

"im starting to doubt you, thats all."-he says.

wtf wyh. wth. you were not frigging there for me let me see. heck most of the time. u dissapear on me twice already without even telling me why. and weyh. i even took you back and forgive you for your dissapearing act the first time. and now all you managed to say is , im starting to doubt you. if anyone should have any doubts, it would be me man. at least, im not the one who stopped contacting the other person completely. i even put some effort to get back with you. what do u expect me to do everytime you dissapeared? wait around like a fool. pretend that hey, maybe he have something big going on, that his gf is not in the frigging contact-them-list. fucking hell. what the hell did i do to deserve this shitty kind of treatment anyway? i broke up with my boyfriend cause of you. i do the whole super long distance relationship thingy. i give you reasons not to text me and all. i never ever doubt you. i freaking trust you. i freaking thought you were different. then those bloody guys out there. and guess wht.

you freaking doubt me.


thts just freaking great. i wont give a damn anymore. you can go have a happy and good life out there.

guys,

guys,

please,

stop thinking with your DICK,

and start thinking with your MIND instead.

you bloody horny assholes bastards.

friends,

I'll be there for you

(When the rain starts to pour)

I'll be there for you

(Like I've been there before)

I'll be there for you

('Cause you're there for me too)

- theme song for FRIENDS.

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im so bored, that im updating my blog twice.

last night, around midnight, when everyone is studying hard for our test the next day.

danny, or was it roy. said that somehow, we're like the "friends". cause, there was 3 girls and 3 guys. so we chose our character.

monica - me, cause. short hair. have something going on with chandler.

chandler - dan, cause. he looks smart, and he love monica :)

rachel - yum, cause. lovable, ganas skit sometimes. oh and sbb mcm ade something going on with ross.

ross - jimmy, cause. pandai gle mamat sorg ni. and actually senyap2 syok kt rachel. but xnk ngaku ;)

phobe- aween, cause. dieorg ckp aween cm random. cm innocent in a good way.

joey - roy, cause. mcm bengong2 jokes die -.-

so there you go. ibt version of friends :)

holiday,

omg, i never thought this week will ever arrived.

here comes, my one week holiday! after a week of non stop masuk air every night with so so much homework and a big test with the passing mark of 90%, it is finally here. the holiday every student from ibt is craving for. no 9 to 6 japanese classes. no waking up 7 am, cause if you're late you will missed the bus. oh oh, and a week without the whole numerous ques and ans in class. especially since i would usually stumblend on my words sometimes cause being caught off guard trying not to sleep during the class. oh and the late night studying.

happy nya :)

but as excited as i am nk cuti. as usual, i never see so many chukudai like this man. and i cant google it some more. so most of my holiday, i would be using it to study, doing hw, do my maths test.

tanoshikunai :(

owarimahsta :)

watashiwa chikudai to moichitto o owarimashta! :)

- saya sudah habis buat hw and corrections :)-


somehow, i feel so happy. siap jgak all those chikudai yg so many pages. kalau kena moichitto lg utk this time, pergh penat siot nak buat corrections anyway. lpas ni nk jmpe mereka2 and tgk tv kt study hall. or go to my friend's room and take my laundry. or, go to sleep. boleh buat pape pun. sbb hw sudah siap. bahahahaha.




p.s. just now i was on myspace. guess what i found out. my ex, azfar, found a new girl. im so happy for him. and so relieved. or else the guilt will still haunt me till now. i hope he is happy with her. he looks happy. gambate azfar :)

hair,

my new hairstyle. i look like a guy -.-

fish off,

i hate this.

i hate this so much.

i hate you so damn friggin much.

friends with benefits,

note to readers,

i have no idea what happened to my last boy. he somehow dissolved from the earth surface and is not been heard for quite sometime. therefore, i'll just consider mysellf unattached to anyone. till now.

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to make long story short,

i did not went back home last week. it was a very tiring week and i was in no mood to go back and forth. so as i was sitting in my room and was about to mopped my room. i received a msg;

D : i need to tell you smthg, but promised me not to get upset or mad at me.

A : sure, pe die?

D : i think i have feelings for you,

the mop i was holding dropped, i tossed my phone on the bed and ran to aween's room. so i was pratically running back and forth and managed to get locked outside my room. twice. with my keys left inside.

it was akward at first. but we acted as if nothing happened between us. we was joking around like we always do and all.

... that lasted for a day or two.

and now, we are suddenly an item. but not exactly a couple though. i dont know what to label us anyway.

so one day, i decided to label us as "friends with benefits"

(origin; 13hill, where sophia bush have a new neighbour. so they did all the dating stuff. but they are not dating. they are free to go out with anyone else that they desired. no strings)

well, he was not happy with that word though. but he's getting used to it, cause the last thing i want now is to be in a relationship. we all know what will happen then.

oyayamada,

tht means ; hari yg kejam in japanese. i figured tht out when the guys keep singing it in the class. and the song is getting into my head. not much to it. but my friend keep singing it before i went to bed. so yea.


anywayy, im so freking tired this week. jepun mmg kejam. sgt. this one whole week is filled with TEST, CHUKUDAI, MOICHITTO, KAIWA. ok, chukudai is hw. im getting lots and lots of it everyday. its like a compulsory thing for some reason. moichitto is when u fail a test u have to repeat it. again and again. and the passing mark is, u cant have more thn 2 wrongs. or elsee. booo. repeat. and kaiwa is drama. since we already did the sentences and reading. we have to hafal all the script in less then 12 hours crazee. and with the test some more -.-

nevertheless, i received 2 text books. books tht are filled with word tht can make u scream and lose ur head. instantly. though, i know i'll get used to it. and i passed my thursday's and friday's tests! woohoo. dah la i spend most of my day studying. a true geek had spoken. hmm.

oh oh, this 2 guys in my class made a song.

no one know what its like,

to be an ibt student,

to receive so many chikudai,

and moichitto.

i cant remember the rest of the song, and wht is the title of the original song. i'll make a mental note to ask them next time around.

i really dont feel like blogging anyway. soo tired. and for the very first time im nt going back when the weekend calls. bangga :)

p.s. i mopped my room. for the very first time. without anyone asking me too.

ica, mamat spandex.

sorry icaaa. nk pg td. but have transport problems. my mummy rasa x rajin nk drive and im nt allowed to drive anyway. but if you put it that way. sabtu dpan cpat tman aku g jog! haha. mamat spandex tu dh kurus? bkan die mmg kurus ke? ey ey. if still hot kte share :P

love u babe :)

pick and grab,

went to pick and grab at hartamas square today. thanks malik sbb pick me up and teman i shop kt situ. jasa baik mu dh dibalas dgn big mac. so we're even da now :)

anyway, i bought a dress-ish. so preety sbb colourful. i like colours. thats why i bought it. oh and i bought a handbag. sbb my old one da nk koyak sbb bwk berat2 g klas. and the grand total is...

RM 50! saving. i like :)

gambate

ignore the post before this. im not talking bout you. just some other person who is butting in people's personal life without knowing another side of the story.

anyway,

my god, i have no time to do other stuff here. other then study like mad. i just had my test yesterday. and i have another one tomorrow! and its like harder words to spell. dang. i did aced my first test. i managed to get only one wrong. so i dont need to retake. haha. and we have maths class! i love maths. a true math geek :)

oh, and we finished hiragana chart. and kiragana is way harder. duhh. people here are more friendly. somehow i managed to hear some very dirty bugis jokes frm a guy who look like chinese and keep teasing me about my spm results.

so far, im fitting in just fine here. with the exception to study all the time and understanding this japanese people. bt i still miss my dear beloved friends in ttdi :/

is tht so?

im tired. really tired. im nt here to please other people. if i do that all the time. i might as well shoot myself in the head and go die. p.s. if im too pushy, he would leave me. not vice versa. and and. i did try not to hurt him, but hey. call me selfish, but i dont want to live in lies where i myself would get hurt. its call survival.

think about it.

when i wake up,

awalnye i woke up today. now its only 8 am. and i have to pack my stuff to go back to the hostel today. and a zara sale to attend to.

uninvited

today;

lily planned another outing. but sadly, miya x dpt join again. she have some test coming up. good luck babe :)

anyway, i drove to lily's house. quite scary. jarang drive tht far. i know. pathetic gle. bt i managed to get there safe and sound. and my mom did less shouting in the car. so im guessing im getting better.

went to ou with lily,malin,ica and najib. we wanted to watch uninvinted. but the gsc people have to claimed tht we are in fact "underaged". mengong. cari ayen who worked there. and he asked us to buy the tickets at the gold class counter. die pun rasa gsc bangang. sampai situ pun x boleh beli jgak. sampai supervisor die dtg and tanya whts up. supervisor die pun bgg kenapa org x bg kteorg beli tikets. like hello. not our fault kteorg x keluar awl. haha. in the end, manager dieorg bg kteorg beli tickets. and ble nk masuk cinema kena check again ic. oh, wht nerve. hmm. nasib tht movie is worth watching. (ask izzat for details. haha)

and masa movie, najib made up some theories about the movie. and we ended up accusing the innocent ppl as evils. haha. and, we were the only group yg jerit cm org gila bila this girl jump on her car. mcm bengong btul. hahah. but i think tht guy who sat next to najib enjoys sitting there, hearing his theories. cause he was laughing along with us. haha

before movie, took some pics at dream world. mcm bangang all the pics. so funny. and i look so fugly. so no point of showing it here. haha. and we ended up posing outside dream world. then went to mph, and bought japanese books. for the class. mahal. even with the discount. hmmph.

i also bought a hairdryer and a shirt.

esok mau shopping lg :)

a proposal,

i may not be the best bf there is..

but hell yeah i'll try to be one,

i may not be as perfect as the other guys may be..

but hell i'll try to be perfect for you,

i may not know wht to say and wht to do..

but give me time and i'll learn,

i may be far away,

but i assure you,

i'll try all i can to be there for you :)

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IZZAT ABDUL HAPIZ wrote that on the 30.04.09 , 00.49 to be exact (australia time though). now tell me, how could i resist a proposal like that *insert goofy loveydovey smile*