to sum it all up,

its raining. one day it should be raining gummy bears. tht would be delicious. imagine.

anyway, miracalously, i pass my test. and past as in sme lpas average. and the other day pun lpas. relax skit.

other thn tht i have nthg to say.

im sad

i need to get a life

i need to get back my smile

私に聞いて、

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君は僕の彼氏

でも、君は僕のことを考えるの？

僕を愛してるといってが

どうしていつも僕の心を痛くさせる？

今泣いているところだ。

君のことを心配だけで

でも、君にとって僕はうるさいんだ。

本当は、僕からなにがほしいの？

僕と遊びたい？

僕はおもちゃじゃない

昔のことに戻って欲しい。

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shit defines itself,

lately life is no fun. everyone's being shitty. when i say everyone . i mean everyone. the bf, the friends and all. i dh la barely have time to relax sme. i and keep on fighting with him. i have no idea. probably not the best time. then here come the teiki shikeng. which is kinda our mid term. with jpa keep ugut nk buang budak. i was like shit. and seriously. i mean this. i cant answer my paper as well as i thought so. i gave shitty answers. and today jek they said kanji nye paper ade org kena repeat. i was like shit. tht someone would probably be me. unless that kim guy btul2 x blaja. im safe. bt other thn tht the possibility fr me to repeat is high. fucking nenrei. i should keep my mouth shut

and today dpt my geog and economy paper. i lulus. bt then x syok la lulus canni. im like the very bottom in the class. i hate being in that class. everyone is a genius. and im there sticking out like willie wonka and the oompa lompas. i dnt even if tht makes sense. and maths i didnt get full marks when i could! and the teacher cant stop teasing me bout it. but at least he gave me a sticker.

i just hope this week will be okay. please dont kill my hope.

050309,

050309

Its his birthday. Well it started good. Bt then …

Anyway in the night of his birthday I bought a slice of choc indulgence. Put a candle on it and surprise him. Waited fr him next to the jidouhanbaiki. Bt he saw my reflection. He said “ I saw that cake” -.-” bt then he enjoyed the cake. He ckp terkejut sbb tatau ble I bought the cake.

Then the next day I went to mid during my lunchtime ngn aween pg topman and bought him a boxer. Dh la its very hard to choose the right one.and yg comel nye x de size. Grrr. Dh la tht topman guy tgk I cm plik jek -.-

After class , I bwk die fr his birthday dinner kt manhattan fish market. Yum yum. We ordered fish and chip. He was shocked tht I bought him boxer. And he a bit marah cause of the price. Whoops :P thn we jln2 shopping fr my mom’s pressie.

After that br blk. Actually kn, shida aween and I planned like a surprise thingy fr him. Bt htn everyone was like so busy ngn shukudai sme. Tpaksa postpone. Sampai d next day mlm br boleh buat. Bt he didn’t like it . We actually argue about it. Anyway it turns out to be the worst birthday fr him. Im sorry