here we go again,

dear dan,

i hate times like this. i know every couple fights. bak kata yum " kalau gaduh tu tanda syg la tu " fine, probably laa. yes, i do love you, you freak. you might as well knw, the whole day i was restraining myself not to cry. kinda getting good at it. faking my happiness when you're in the other end are busy being pissed at me. you tau kan. i really really dont like fighting. you said so yourself. but why. on earth DOSHTE you and i are fighting.

the main reason we're fighting pun i dh x igt. then wht is the use of fighting? ok, i was at fault. merajuk x tentu psl2. mula2 i seriously merajuk main2 jek. i cnt remember why it get serious. i usually love to put the blame on the hormones. but nah, i know its basically because of my stupidity. but why . whenever i was trying to be nice in return then you plak mrajuk. why do you have to crumpled it out in such a cruel way. okay. my heart seriously shattered that time. almost cried. lie. cried. but cover2. then, in the bus, you didnt sat next to me. i felt so ouch. at tht time, i was busy being mad and emo. so i was like ok. biarlah you. pgl faris duduk sblah i, in hope you suruh faris pindah and duduk sblah i. but nah, you didnt do tht.

i missed you during dinner. i miss you know. im sorry dear. really am. am making world annoucment now. if only you listen to me now :(

sorry sayang.

cool fever,

i feel so sick now.

felt like throwing up after dinner. but somehow, the puke gedik xnk keluar.

therefore, i have this yucky filling in my mouth since just now.

and now, my demam panas balik.

thank god, i finish all my work with full speed.

except this one pending kanji.

next week jek la.

so now, im in my room, with hida's cool fever nye thingy.

that is adult size, too big fr my forehead though,

but daijoubu.

i hope i get well :/

it's about time,

badak mengaum.

now that will be something funny to see. now wouldn't it?

anyway, it's about time the laptop and the internet is working. i miss you my blog. i miss updating my posts and telling stories here :/

so, let me see,

this past few days, nothing interesting happened i think. haha. that is a LIE obviously. since when nothing interesting ever happen to me?

so let me see, one week i was pacing here trying to find out what are my results for the last test. and finally when i know the marks. my god, am i dissapointed. my mark are kinda average. but there's this one test i got a very low mark. listening test! i think i figured out tht im deaf -.- but other than that i can't help being stupid or not well equipped. sooo, the result, tattara. blegh.

oh, then later on, i found from hida, tht my bf's ex gf is enrolling into mahsa college. ok, you might have a clue wht mahsa have to do with this. so you see, my hostel, and the mahsa's college punye hostel or college or pe nta. is within a walking distance and, we always go around tht area to hang. one day, might be a possibility that i got to meet the infamous adah. who knows.

oh, and i felt sick twice this week. nothing big like h1n1. i hope. so like the other day, serious x tahan. headache like mad dlm klas. dh la headache. have to read a long text in hiragana and kanji. so, i ask my teacher wether i can sleep in the sick room. she said yeah. she ask me ques which i didnt managed to answer with words. just actions. the sick room was like sauna. no air cond. cant figure out how to switch it on. so i sleep in that room that have a very weird odour with the windows open. and i can hear the indian guards yapping away, until i fell asleep. today, im sick jgak. one of the day's where i get sick so badly. so always went to the toilet and all. and i cannot even eat the beef curry. ee, sedih btul.

and and and and. my usrah camp thingy is CANCELLED! yes, now i can go to hadi's wedding happily. but, i miss my ttdi friends :(

if the clouds can cry, why can't we?

the cloud look so gloomy today. they say, the weather always affect one's mood. true.

this morning, woke up a bit late. 7.10 am. broke my promise with my bf to tman him go buy breakfast. did not have enough time to get ready cause the bus was here. got into the bus, my bf look pissed. he kinda was. for no reason. then, i was so sleepy throughout the day. thank god, the first 3 periods kanji and kaiwa jek. and i finished my hw during kaiwa period sbb lama gle tunggu my turn. and hafal the whole thing already. then during break time, i got a teribble headache. blegh. luckily, the 5th period was essay time. so laid back skit. and sumitani yg masuk. he's fun. but yg tension nye. tomorrow, 10 page worth of kanji to remember. test esok. and my essay is due on friday. the title; my house. good luckreading it people.

and now, i have to go soothe my bf down. chalo bette

gives you hell,

my class just started. its only tuesday. but i feel like sleeping throughout the whole day. or jisatsu (self suicidal). then, somehow i feel stupid, and unhappy. not about my social life. that is good. just that argh. kwn ku yg jimi yg bdak private got his marks. its like ALL 90 + . then he explains to me how they marked the papers. it sounds so scary. and his reading and interview was the only thing he got a sucky mark. mine was quite bad at that time! to add to my misery, im broke. okay, i have money. but like gosh. aaa, korosu smthg cpat! esok de kaiwa. nagai ne. like 2 pages and a half kena hafal. and its all, nakerebanarimasen. imagine tht sentence at the end of almost many sentence. like hell. then kanji test tomorrow like shit. you see, my headmaster is teaching fr the week as a sub. argh, he's handsome. bt damn it. teach la properly. kanji tu dh lah cm mangkuk. g conteng 1 board. 1 bnde x faham. mengong gle. ughh. and my maths test. 94 jek! aa. i want to get 100. and its all stupid careless mistakes. hope tomorrow they dont give me hell. tlg laaa.



p.s. to one of my exes. kalau terasa, maybe its not you. i think he knows exactly who he is. i think, for some reason, adik die might be reading this. so if adik die baca, this proves, like ohmygod, get a life wyh, i and your brother was nothing. and if you felt ouch by this. by reading it just proves im right.anyway, to that guy. aku still rasa awek kau tu should grow up and not to cry over small stuff. and put the blame on me and my friends. like seriously. wtf wyh. and you dude, fine with the protecting gf thingy. but hello! wake up please. aku x suka kau. aku ngn kau dh xde pape. aku x ingin pn nk jadi kwn ngn kau. what made you think i wanted to be your friend, i have no idea. go figure. and and. lastly, omedeto ne? buta to baka jyanai to zutto omotte iru anata ne.

well, i miss you too.

Firstly: If you've been tagged, you must write your answers in your own blog and replace any question that you dislike with a new, original question.
Secondly: Tag eight people. Don't refuse to do that. Don't tag who tagged you.

Who sleeps in bed next to you
?if dkat rumah, my sister. or alone.
if kt hostel, hida my roomie :)

Have you ever lied to a teacher to get out of a deadline?
how about countless of times?
"cg, sy betul dh siap. esok betul sy hantar"
and i'll always get away with it. after all, kn muka geek yg "slalu" hantar hw :P

What kind of books do you read?
chic lits, with a touch of romance

.Best day of the week?
saturday! the day i would wake up around afternoon. then have mcd fr lunch and go out :)

What's really creepy?
insects with uncountable legs.
insects tht flies.
i hate animals that are not fluffy.

Who is your celebrity crush?'
jesse mccartney. duhh.

What's your current fandom/obsession/addiction?
clothes!

What are you listening to right now?
jet - look what you've done

What did you eat for lunch today?
x mkn lunch lg sadly sbb x de manusia kt sini.
ate nasi lemak td though :)

What websites do you always visit when you go online?
facebook, blog, gmail, myspace.

What was the last thing you bought?
nasi lemak

What was the cutest thing you've seen today?
my cleaned table, and overstuffed wardrobe.
haha, oh an d a cat when i was buying the nasi lemak. and this kid telling his mom to buy him nasi lemak for lunch

Does the weather affect your mood?
most of the time yeah

What is your zodiac sign?
libra

Do you want to learn another language?
learning japanese now. how about some tagalog ppl :)

5 things you can't live without.
phone, laptop, handbags, clothes, and my teddy :)

If you could meet anyone now, who would you meet?
danny! motto aitai ne. missing u like crazy

What's something you'd like to say to someone right now?
cpat la blk -.-

What are you looking forward to?
another date ;))

Say something to the person who tagged you:
hida! i dh buat kunci. cpat blk :)

8 persons i tag :
1.qiqi
2.jafri
3.ica
4.nicole
5.nadia
6.lily
7. farhana
8.malin

i just realiesed,

i complained too much about my work at IBT tu. actually im quite lucky. the only thing i have to learn now is just nihonggo and maths. and its just the simple maths somemore. after comparing with my other friends who is taking different courses at uitm. seriously. so many stuff to learn. and the maths, i'll be speechless to answer. korg nye subject agk susah. *with the exception of qiqi nye course. sbb qiqi nye course cm super awesome. jealous gle * therefore, my ibt friends, we should be glad we're doing just this and not learning about some computer maths or wtv. yet.