first kiss,

i borrowed this dvd frm my college. my teachers were shocked that they have this kind of dvd there. looking at me disapprovingly and laughing. i told her, its ok. im 18 already. then they laugh.

anyway, i finish watching ths dvd today. waa. kimochi ga ii. best la cte tu. i thought cte tu mcm pe ke. bt nope. cute sgt. story ni psl a girl ade heart disease who is due to a 50% probability pnye operation. the she went back to japan to visit his brother. her first kiss was her fat brother. who turns out to be a hot but unemployed playboy brother. bt comel how the brother jaga die and all. and the she fell in love with this doctor. which is so sweet. setakat hold hands and hug jek. comel gle. grr. last2 die x mati tp tatau pe jd ngn die and the doctor. tstsk.

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hmm, first kiss. how was yours?

since i dnt have any brother, so im safe. he's a guy. i was young and stupid. i guess kissing was a big thing before. i mean. you're young you dnt knw anything. bt kissing is like a step. but kid nowdays igtkn sex is the step. baka ne.

anyway,

my first kiss was when i was 15. i think it was his birthday. 24/2 or was it our one year anni? i cant remember the date quite well. bt it was around tht period of time. i remembered gado ngn die before. psl a girl name ezureen. haha. gle menyesal to gaduh fr someone like tht. boku mo baka jyanai ka shira. anyway, we fought. then baik. thn we kissed. dkat dpan pragmatik. staircase of course. i cnt remember evrythg. but it was nice. innocent nice. luckily we didnt get caught.

i remember breaking up with you. i promised to myself i wont kiss anyone until my school life ends. yuppp. i dont think i broke that promise.

since you're my first kiss. i wonder who would be my last kiss.

i hope that guy would be husband.

and i hope its you, d.

ohisashuburi

dan , brownie, faris and the rest

handsome la u :)

one of the lori masa pindah. full -.-

the top view masa pindah hari tu

the last night staying in help residence

ohisashiburi da yo ne.

its been quite a while kn. somehow, i dont like writing in my blog nowdays. pemalas tahap ciban.

but since its holiday. oh well.

anyway, updates.

last week we shift hostel. from help residence to a condo in taman desa. seriously, im happy we shift place. we should live here frm the start. curse you kouhai tachi. grr.

anyway, the new condo ade pool and gym. woohoo. and one unit 5 ppl. ade living room and kitchen. so im happy. everyday boleh cook. sbb tpt x sempit. and the consolotion prizes fr the condo is a sofa, huge dining table, a tv, a fridge and water heater. i got the master bedroom. share ngn shida. so our room ade toilet yg de water heater. mmg best. and everyday i cook lunch. with my assistant bella! haha. sbb i dnt knw how to pecahkn the eggs and masak nasi. so slalunye she do the rice, i do the rest. bt tpt baru x leh blaja ngn dan :( blaja sndiri2. sometimes rindu blajar ngn die. sbb die slalu tlg i buat shukudai. tsktsk.

anyway, class. hmm. idk why i cant cocentrate. asyik pk pe nk mkn, pe nk buat lepas ni, or pk psl nk tido. or thn i tido. and to top it all, there's ths kid duduk blakang i. when i say she's a kid. she is one. she's 16 but my god i see more matured 12 years old thn her. she is so childish and so loud. bfore this die homeschooled. so thats why she's like tht. but serious x tahan. dlm klas she would be asking irrelevant ques. kankei nai hanashi. baka. even the teachers are annoyed. one of the reason i x leh concentrate is her. she would be talking to herself/making unfunny jokes/ trying to explain everything as if we didnt knw it yet. and the thing is nk kata bdak tu pandai yg dpt 100 fr every test x jgak. xdela pandai mane. ntah pape. she's getting on my nerve. grrr

pnat dh. i'll update tomorrow

a lil smthg bout cleo,

as usual, history class is boring. i have no idea why. but i hate the idea of studying history.

and my eye's seem to agree with it everytime during class. cause i'll usually fell asleep.

so during class td, sensei bwk the usual who's who book. full with pics and kanji. so thn faru pgg tht book kjap. skali she showed me a stamp yg de a lady tgh pgg ular with her clothes showing one side of her boobs. i find it very interesting.

so after class, i jmpe uchimura and pinjam the book frm her. sbb nk baca. and ask her bout tht pic.

actualy the boobshowing lady is cleopatra. that stamp shows how did she die. apparently she committed a suicide. she hold in her hand a poisonous snake and make it bite her. on the breast. to her. that is the prettiest way to die.

go figure this history making people

to sum it all up,

its raining. one day it should be raining gummy bears. tht would be delicious. imagine.

anyway, miracalously, i pass my test. and past as in sme lpas average. and the other day pun lpas. relax skit.

other thn tht i have nthg to say.

im sad

i need to get a life

i need to get back my smile

私に聞いて、

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君は僕の彼氏

でも、君は僕のことを考えるの？

僕を愛してるといってが

どうしていつも僕の心を痛くさせる？

今泣いているところだ。

君のことを心配だけで

でも、君にとって僕はうるさいんだ。

本当は、僕からなにがほしいの？

僕と遊びたい？

僕はおもちゃじゃない

昔のことに戻って欲しい。

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shit defines itself,

lately life is no fun. everyone's being shitty. when i say everyone . i mean everyone. the bf, the friends and all. i dh la barely have time to relax sme. i and keep on fighting with him. i have no idea. probably not the best time. then here come the teiki shikeng. which is kinda our mid term. with jpa keep ugut nk buang budak. i was like shit. and seriously. i mean this. i cant answer my paper as well as i thought so. i gave shitty answers. and today jek they said kanji nye paper ade org kena repeat. i was like shit. tht someone would probably be me. unless that kim guy btul2 x blaja. im safe. bt other thn tht the possibility fr me to repeat is high. fucking nenrei. i should keep my mouth shut

and today dpt my geog and economy paper. i lulus. bt then x syok la lulus canni. im like the very bottom in the class. i hate being in that class. everyone is a genius. and im there sticking out like willie wonka and the oompa lompas. i dnt even if tht makes sense. and maths i didnt get full marks when i could! and the teacher cant stop teasing me bout it. but at least he gave me a sticker.

i just hope this week will be okay. please dont kill my hope.

050309,

050309

Its his birthday. Well it started good. Bt then …

Anyway in the night of his birthday I bought a slice of choc indulgence. Put a candle on it and surprise him. Waited fr him next to the jidouhanbaiki. Bt he saw my reflection. He said “ I saw that cake” -.-” bt then he enjoyed the cake. He ckp terkejut sbb tatau ble I bought the cake.

Then the next day I went to mid during my lunchtime ngn aween pg topman and bought him a boxer. Dh la its very hard to choose the right one.and yg comel nye x de size. Grrr. Dh la tht topman guy tgk I cm plik jek -.-

After class , I bwk die fr his birthday dinner kt manhattan fish market. Yum yum. We ordered fish and chip. He was shocked tht I bought him boxer. And he a bit marah cause of the price. Whoops :P thn we jln2 shopping fr my mom’s pressie.

After that br blk. Actually kn, shida aween and I planned like a surprise thingy fr him. Bt htn everyone was like so busy ngn shukudai sme. Tpaksa postpone. Sampai d next day mlm br boleh buat. Bt he didn’t like it . We actually argue about it. Anyway it turns out to be the worst birthday fr him. Im sorry