and this is how it begins,

Im bored. Still cant be connected to internet : ( sad. Anyway, baru sedar. I never wrote here about my bf. I mean how it happened and all. Usually, I would. But at that time, I wanna keep it a hush hush? Maybe. Wasurechatta -.-” you are probably saying something like spare me details, eh? My blog, I’ll write what I want . Rase meluat nk bacac xyah baca. Ne? : P

It all started during the first time I went to ibt. Where all budak jpa kena kumpul. Being so lost, I looked around and kinda dissapointed that the guys are so not good looking. Seriously. So, as I went into the building, I saw him. Standing around the corner wth his dad and mom. My dad shook his dad’s hand and all. But smthg about him catched my eyes. Kinda eager to know him. Time tu, igtkn die chinese. Shocked sbb semua kt situ melayu, sesat cina plak -.-

So first day of class, somehow I was quite happy tht he took the same course. Hee. So same class. And everyone was introducing themselves, I found out his name is danny. Then during lunch break, terkejut tgk he masuk surau. I remember saying to my friend, eh die smbahyang. Melayu rupenye. Haha. But he was loud. Dgn his new friends. Like so loud. Kinda annoyed at first. Siap tegur lg dieorg . And tht time busy ngn jokes about maria. So in class pun loud. Annoyed.

Danny ni jenis suka duduk kt study hall, when everyone else lpas class tidur. Interesting. So, one day tu, aween and I nk g nearest cc. sbb we cant live wthout fb! Aha. Tp nk ltak brg kt study hall. Aween takut brg kena curi, so instead kteorg suruh danny tu jaga, sbb he was the only one there. Then off we go. Otw there, yum call ckp nk pinjam buku. So I ask her to take my book frm danny. Blk frm cc, tgk2 danny xde. And to found out yum took my book only, panic. Aween syg her notebook. So we went up and down looking fr danny’s number. Dpt his friend nye number, roy. So call roy nk dpt danny’s. tp call die , no answer. Aween risau, so I ask roy to go check danny’s room or smthg. In the end, dpt jgak buku aween. He handed it to me. Frm there, I kept his number : )

So, as day went by, makin lama makin rapat ngn die. Sometimes, I even ajak die blaja sama. And sometimes, I turun sorg, hoping to have a glimpse of him. Crazy right? But I was kinda stupid then. I mean mcm, benda sng, but asyik kena repeat test. Dh la tht time, my current bf menghilang. Sgt tension. So one day, in the bus. I just sat there, next to aween, and cried. Alone. He was sitting behind me. Aween told him. So, masa dh sampai, I just went to the study hall. Not talking to anyone. And started doing my homework. Bingit sgt sbb im stupid to repeat the tests. I cried again. He sat there next to me. Keep asking wether im ok or not. I told him, im ok. Obviously im not. At one time tu, he pgg my hands and say, are you ok? At tht time. Somehow the time mcm stop. Then he let go. Lpas tu, he type stuff on his phone. Comel gle like im right here if you neef me with a smiley. Hee. Then, that night, I went to the subway with him. We talk and talk. I think I fell in love with him then.

And on one fine day, I was cleaning my room fr the very first time. Pinjam mop aween bg. Then, br nk start mop, dpt a msg frm danny ckp he have smthg to tell me. And he told me he likes me. I was like shrieking, jumping up and down, lari g blik aween and show her the sms. So I was running back and forth, sampai kena locked outside, twice. Anyway, seriously happy on tht day, then we went fr dinner ramai2. We act as if nthg happened. And then blk study hall, baca cleo together. Adorable. I like tht time.

But then, awl2 tu cm de problem. He had a gf. I had a bf. A missing one though. So always de problem, sbb he cant seem to break up with her. But keep telling me tht he loved me. Mcm, sakit hati la jgak. Tht one day I let him go. Like they say, if you love someone, you let them go. And if they return thn they’re yours. He came back. And we get together again. He broke up with his gf. And me with mine. But, mcm tht gf of his was still there though. Annoying. Quite kejam kn I? oh well. Anyway, sampai one day tu I bingit I naik my room. Then, he try to put a smile on my face. He was like, eh, tshirt american idol. Funny. There I was bingit kt die, due cme nk cte about my shirt -.-

Anyway, on one fine night, he asked me to be his gf. And tht was tht. Im his. And forever would be : )

holiday,

Waaa, hisahiburi deshou ne.

Tsktsk, sad. The modem do know how to pick the right time to stop functioning. Just when I have two weeks of holiday. I need to be connected with my facebook and blog! Aaaa! Bored . Bored. Bored. Sometimes, I get so bored that I do my homework. Almost done. Tinggal maths skit lg. and some nihonggo pnye ques tht I decided im too lazy to ans. Anyway bfore holiday dh berazam, tht I would study all my kanji and bungpo. But harapan tgl harapan.

Anyway, before cuti , I organized like a small party fr the class. As I wrote bfre, we aint in the same class anymore L so I bought kfc and other stuff with cakes. Even our class teacher is there, nishio sensei. Oh, on that day nishio nangis. While giving out the results. Our results must be tht bad, huh? She told us, if we work hard, we can do it. We can excel. She said, we don’t know when we’ll die. Maybe another 60 years perhaps? We only have to suffer for a year or so. And if we didn’t do our best. We’ll regret it our whole lives. True. The scary thing was. She never cries. I mean she do ths, im going to eat you up alive if you don’t pass up the hw, but she’s a good teacher. Im lucky she is still teaching me though.

Soooo,

During the holiday. What do I do eh? I spent countless hours in front of my laptop watching jap drama. Yes, I got the dell people to come and fix my laptop. Quite frustrating talking to the customer service’s operator though. A whloe lot of you do this and that. But nthg worked. So they came. Complicated. And I thought you only change the cd- rom -.-

Anyway, tgk cerita HERO. Ok, drama ni sgt la lama sgt. I have to admit. The only reason im watching it cause im practicing my listening skills. Which I obvously suck. Boleh faham la. Amazingly. Cme byk sgt gne bahasa polite, which I don’t really memorize. Anyway. Hero best. Sad. But funny. The guy is hot. Haha. Then I watch chikoku shoujyo. Translated, girl from hell. I don’t even need the subtitle. Lg boleh faham. Cte die menarik. I mean, would you do your revenge, drop the person you hate the most in hell? Even, if tht means, you yourself going to hell, etenarly after you die if you do so? They did. Baka jyanai ka? I dnt think someone would do tht. But, hey, we’re living in a cruel world. Sou ne? anyway, learn a new sentence. Chikoku ni ochiru. Drop in hell.

The days im not watching dvd, im out. Most of the time. Like Sunday and Monday, both days keluar ngn danny. He went bck to johor Tuesday, so mcm nk lpas rindu la. I love you so much. Seriously. Missing you like crazy, daniel arief. Anyway, he bwk I g mkn ikea. For the very first time I ate at the café. Sbb usually I mkn yg hot dog kt bwh tu jek. Sedappp sgt. And like so cheap. Best. We sat at ikea fr an hour or so, talking. And pretending as if we’re a married couple. Crazy right, love?

Wednesday tu plak, keluar ngn nad and zaim. Nad bwk g uitm die. Sgt menarik. And then khamis, I went to the dentist. Im missing a tooth now, and no I did nt get a fight with anyone. So stop with the ques -.- then on Saturday, went our dgn miya and ica. We’re supposed to go to the flynivessary tp x jd. Tgh tunggu ica do her stuff, terjumpa aiman, acap and izzat. Yupp, tht izzat. Shhh. Bt the secret is. We’re friends now. Anyway, we talk and talk and talk. Then dieorg blk, sambung shopping. Miya introduce me to a new shop. Recommended. The clothes are just sooo preety and cheap! Thanks miya J bought the dress that I always wanted, sigh.

So thts a week of holiday, compressed in this very post. Ade another week to enjoy my butt off before sambung jd zombie kerajaan. Haiyoo. I’ll update again. Muri dewa nai. Seikou mo dekinai shi. Kawaiso ne? anyway, I miss you, daniel arief L

jgn tembak witch,

woohoo, hari ni habis test. and officially im done with the language. here comes, history and geog. in japanese. i know. you guys are lucky you can do yours in english. anyway, they said we're supposed to be at the same level with form 2 students in japan. maybe.

hmm, pe dh blaja 6 bulan ni. i learn that. people change. a lot. some perangai menyampah tu sempat muncul. and compared to dulu. x rapat sgt ngn dieorg ni. but when i get to know them. baik jgak la. i mean, though dieorg alim2. tp dieorg at the same time boleh layan kepala la jgak. i mean in away, they dont stressed out on being alim like 24/7. though, they cant help it sometimes. oh, and i learn a lot about the language. obviously la kan. kalau x blaja mmg sengaja la kn. and smlam, i just found out. kt jepun mmg wujud tpt yg bernama hitachi dgn toyota. seriously. im not lying. you guys can look it up dkat japan nye map.

anyway, i finished my test today with listening test. sucks like hell. x paham a thing die ckp on radio. main colour jek bulat2 tu. mcm menarik. hahaha. abis awl so blk around 1230. bas kosong sebab ramai g mid dn merata tpt lagi. mmg best sgt.

*dh lama tulis tp malas nk update. so. nnt jek la ble rajin update psl post ni*

ntah pape, i tau.

wht i do before i sleep,

friday is today. today is friday. yokatta :)

*jumping up and down*

finally. rasa cm skjap. sbb lg 9 hari my teiki exam. grr.

anyway, today lunch dgn shida, aween, faru and ira. kteorg g spaghetti grill tu.

lama x g situ. sgt menarik dn sedap during lunch .

so borak la ngn shida. rupanye we're more alike then we think we are.

sbb, mase tidur we have a few scares.

1. if i tidur, if panas ke sejuk ke pe ke. in any condition pun. must must use the blanket. cover the legs at least. sbb takut ade benda main ngn kaki u.

2. tingkap ngn langsir kena tutup rapat. jgn bg npk space pun. takut npk pape yg x ptt kt luar.

3. kerusi masuk dlm meja. nnt setan duduk tgk u tidur.

4. tidur jgn facing dinding. sbb takut de pape kt blakang u. nnt u x npk lg u takut.

5. almari tu pun kena tutup rapat. nnt asyik igt de benda dlm tu .

i know. it is very sad tht people like us still exist. kesiankn?

haish pe nak buat. shizeng dakara ne. mmm.

anyway, mlm ni de movie night. 3 movie straight. i love you beth cooper, finally dpt tgk!

haha

challo bette, nk mandi . tata

maybe everyone get their period today,

sbb tu semua org pms nk moody kot .

today is a very ugh day.

dh la hari ni kena bertugas. i know . lame. im supposed to be in college. tp still kena bertugas -.-

anyway,

hari ni de org dlm klas tu mcm x puas hati ngn i.

my job supposed to bg blk hw yg dh kena mark. so mcm berterabur la kn.

so i susun la the papers n nk bg ikut row.

pastu i pass this girl yg duduk plg dpan suruh pass ke blakang. die dh nk bg tu. tp dgn bggnye. die pusing blk with the papers ckp not fair utk org lain. i tanye kenapa x fair. die ckp x fair.

like hello minah.

blakang kau jek. org lain x kisah pun. dh ckp tlg each other. org lain bertugas pun aku tolong jgak wyh. xdelah selfish mcmtu skali.

pastu die conteng blackboard pastu xnk padam. die ckp its my job. padahal die yg conteng. pandai padam la wyh. thn die x puas hati ble org lain tlg i pass kn the papers. die ckp. kenapa semua org baik ngn aida ni. jadilah kejam sikit ngn die. kecoh btul.

die ckp, kt duina ni xde org nk buat baik so die pun buat la kejam kt i.

so i told her. xpe. dh biasa ngn org mcm kau.

terdiam terus. sorry la. i knw ur sensitive and might go crying kt toilet.

i dont give a damn. anymore. about anyone. dh penat melayan kerenah korg.

suka hati korg la.

buat la pe korg nk .

frm now on. aku x nk amik kisah dh.

abandoned,

terasa berzaman x bercerita pape yg menarik kt sini. slalu sgt abaikn blog kesygn ku ini. ala. mcm de org baca. hidup sy kn x begitu menarik dn sgt dramatic bg sesetengah org itu. tp tidak mengapalah. apalah yg boleh sy buat.

pelik nye tulis melayu skrang. dh lama x tulis krangan bm. sgt rindu masa2 boleh merepek 3 page penuh dgn merepek tp ayat yg reti guna. nk tulis lg karangan :(

anywayyyyy, sorry i abandoned you my precious blog. i'll try to fit updating you in my hectic but non existing life.

word of the day;

gambarisugite, shinemas.

bak kat rauf senpaiku. sono iikata wa. sukaimasen. xleh pakai nye ayat kalau g jepun. they use some other word. wht i meant to say is, terlebih berusaha, boleh mati. nk tanya cg esok betul ke x.

oh, hari ni. beli lip balm honey. menarik rasa die. sgt sedap. yummy.

today stay back sampai kul 7. bas senpai kul 7. pastu tunggu danny buat repeat utk test hari tu. oh, lupa bgtau. the other day punye test dpt no 3 dlm klas and top 10 kt situ. bangga skit :)

tp next week punye mcmane ek. mcm x boleh buat. sbb asyik tidur dlm klas. can't help it. my energy level is at a very low point. tsk tsk.

anyway, patut mandi skrang. danny dh tunggu kt bwh. and donut pun tgh tunggu.

so tata :)

*internet sini menarik. tp amari yokunai des. msn x leh masuk. mengong*

dont feed me,

nthg to update.

skrang rasa sgt mls nk update blog.

mcm xde function.

so nnt ble de mood br update btul2.

ni update pn cme nk tunggu main game kt fb tu habis loading.

anyway, happy birthday khairum mawaddah* !

:)

*classmate kt sini*

anyway, sakit perut.

esok dpt results

takut kena moichiddo.

sbb klas sblah 5 org jek mo.

tsktsk